Hi, pabackread ako :) 

Posted: October 21, 2014
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Shatter Me (Shatter Me #1) by Tahereh Mafi

Ratings: 4 out of 5


Juliette hasn’t touched anyone in exactly 264 days.

The last time she did, it was an accident, but The Reestablishment locked her up for murder. No one knows why Juliette’s touch is fatal. As long as she doesn’t hurt anyone else, no one really cares. The world is too busy crumbling to pieces to pay attention to a 17-year-old girl. Diseases are destroying the population, food is hard to find, birds don’t fly anymore, and the clouds are the wrong color.

The Reestablishment said their way was the only way to fix things, so they threw Juliette in a cell. Now so many people are dead that the survivors are whispering war – and The Reestablishment has changed its mind. Maybe Juliette is more than a tortured soul stuffed into a poisonous body. Maybe she’s exactly what they need right now.

Juliette has to make a choice: Be a weapon. Or be a warrior. (x)


So when I read the few chapters of the book, I absolutely loved it already. I like how she played with words and I like how Juliette (the protagonist) thinks. The moment when Juliette met Adam Kent in the asylum was very magical. Idk but I liked that part and how Adam was so eager to learn more about the girl. But what I liked the most is the fact that Juliette loves to write in her small notebook and she keeps on dreaming about the flock of white birds!! She love using metaphors, how cool is that. She even described Adam Kent, very frequently. She can’t touch anything or anyone, her touch is lethal, they can die in her arms, but shit she can touch Adam! 

Anyway, what’s bothering me is when I met the character of Warner. I AM SO SURE THEY ARE BETTER TOGETHER!! I believe in the deepest corners of my heart that they will end up together. Tho it seems that he’s only using her and her capabilities to kill people. He was so obsessed with her. But it’s obvious that she liked Adam better. Then he figured out that he can also touch Juliette. I feel so happy that time, idk why. 

Juliette is like an ordinary girl full of insecurities, doubts and fears. She’s always worried about Adam and his feelings. But Adam is OKAY. I don’t hate him, I just like Warner better (without him being obsessed with Juliette). He’s even romantic! I mean a guy pointing out the beautiful characters of a girl was really romantic. And she’s lucky to have Kent. 

Buuuuuuut, the story was really good. It’s a young adult dystopian thriller. The flow was good esp the exchanging of their dialogues. Very romantic. Full of metaphors. But somehow, i believed that Mafi abused using them, and it’s not good. Just a thought. But I am looking forward to read the next to the series, Unravel Me. So here’s some of my favorite quotes in the book:

  • "All I ever wanted was to reach out and touch another human being not just with my hands but with my heart."
  • “Raindrops are my only reminder that clouds have a heartbeat. That I have one, too.” 
  • “I only know now that the scientists are wrong. The world is flat. I know because I was tossed right off the edge and I’ve been trying to hold on for 17 years. I’ve been trying to climb back up for 17 years but it’s nearly impossible to beat gravity when no one is willing to give you a hand.”
  • “Every butterfly in the world has migrated to my stomach.” 
  • “I am a being comprised of letters, a character created by sentences, a figment of imagination formed through fiction.
  • “Sometimes I think the loneliness inside of me is going to explode through my skin and sometimes I’m not sure if crying or screaming or laughing through the hysteria will solve anything at all. Sometimes I’m so desperate to touch, to be touched, to feel, that I’m almost certain I’m going to fall off a cliff in an alternate universe where no one will ever be able to find me.” 
  • “Moving forward is the only way to survive.” 
  • “Because when I said I wanted to touch the moon you took my hand, held me close, and taught me how to fly.” 
  • “God, Juliette, I’d follow you anywhere. You’re the only good thing left in this world.” 

So if you want to read the rest of the book, download ebook [here] or [here]

Posted: October 20, 2014
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"You don’t always have to defend yourself with your words. Sometimes, your silence gives people a clue, that you have better thoughts in mind."
Posted: October 18, 2014
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a throwback photo from my high school graduation 

So almost 2 years had passed. It won’t hurt posting a throwback right? I just keep on missing high school and my friends there. Because unfortunately, I just pulled out from them. And it’s a stupid thing to do ( i know). But sure, painful memories from the past are haunting me again, and might as well runaway from it (sorry i’m too coward). But hey, I really missed their company. It’s been a long time since i last saw them (except from Grace of course). 

First photo: (From left to right) Arianne, Debrah, me, Carmela and Angeline

The first photo were my barkada since 2nd year. We got separated in 3rd year. And guess what, we reconciled on our 4th year on high school and I was able to fix things up (obviously i am a fucked-up lady, no doubt). 

Second Photo: (from left to right) Madelene, Mima, Shekkainah, Abegail, Anne and Grace

Grace, Madelene, Mima and Anne were my only close friends there. But the others were another story. I miss our public speaking memories! They are priceless!

Posted: October 18, 2014
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Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday happy birthday, happy birthday to youuuuuuuuuu.

Emmalavs! Matanda ka na talaga. Nadagdagan na naman ng isang taon yung edad mo. Hahaha! Oo ayan ipapangalandakan ko sayo. Kaya nga di na kita pagsasabihan dahil matanda ka na at alam mo na ang tama sa mali. Basta ako, nandito lang forevs for you. Kahit na maging inactive tayo parehas (lalo ka na dahil sa work mo) or magdeact ka or ako, never kitang kakalimutan lalo na sa araw ng birthday mo :) Super thank you kase naging kaibigan kita. Alam mo naman kung gaano ako ka-grateful sayo. Napakatagal na nating magkaibigan. Two years na! Pero never kang nakalimot, parati ka ring nandyan kahit na NAPAKALAYO ng agwat ng age natin. Luh sakit ba? Truth hurts eh. HAHAHA. Pero alam naman nating parehas na you’re wiser, stronger and better than before. 

Salamat sa pagtotolerate mo sa kalandian ko noon. Maniwala ka sakin, matino na ako ngayon. Wala nang maraming crush :) Luuuh update lang kita hahaha. Kase ikaw una kong nilalapitan pag may crush ako eh hayp na yan hahahays. Namiss na kitang kausap, pero alam kong mahirap na ulit ibalik ang dati kase ako super busy na sa reality (luh i kid lol) at ikaw naman sa work. Pero sana magkita tayo ulit soon! Nakakamiss ka! Kayo kayo nila clauds. I miss you. I love youuuu. Happy birthday again.

P.S. This picture was taken 1 year ago. Napakabilis ng panahon. Credits to the rightful owner of the photo.


Ellaine xx

Posted: October 18, 2014
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  • I woke up very early today and checked my phone if someone called or texted me (usually my habit every goddamn morning). 
  • My parents went off to sss to fix some troubles in my dad’s insurance.
  • My older brother went somewhere I really don’t know.
  • My younger brother was with me the whole morning but he went off to school in the afternoon for his exams.
  • My organization held a meeting today but sadly I chose my best friend OVER it. 
  • I went to my bitch friend’s place in Meycauayan to chitchat with her.
  • It’s already 3 pm when I got there.
  • I really miss their home especially Mama A (her grandma) and the foods! 
  • We spent the whole time laughing, stalking and blabbing about our old crush. It’s been decades since I felt that nostalgic feeling about me having a huge crush on that certain guy. I laughed at the thought.
  • I really miss high school.
  • She even let me see her box full of letters from her ex lover (hmmm) and my letter for her 2 years ago before the graduation.
  • Finally, she returned my book, “Tuesdays with Morrie.” One year had passed when she borrowed it from me. 
  • Then I saw my grades in sis. I already got 2.0 and I’m really sad. But hey, I know I did my best. God knows I did my best. I shouldn’t feel bad about it. Sometimes, people don’t just appreciate someone’s efforts through favorable return. And I, understand it. 
  • I decided to leave around 6:30 in the evening. I got tired eventually. So there. 

This is indeed a pleasant day xx

Posted: October 17, 2014
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I wander to different places already.

Searching my lost pieces of myself.

That’s true, I intend to collect those puzzles together. 

But I can’t.

Because I am the puzzle itself. 

Posted: October 16, 2014
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What’s with 2015 huh. 

What’s with 2015 huh. 

Posted: October 14, 2014
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Excuse my face. Lol hoho.

Posted: October 14, 2014
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Bucket List. 

Bucket List. 

Posted: October 12, 2014
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